Moving Day

Today is the last day before I move out of my home. Moving feels odd. It is time to go and there are no regrets. Yet, I brought two of my babies home to this house and today I keep seeing the memories and it feels like they are happening as they come into my mind.

I knew I wanted this home the moment I saw it. I could feel the age of it. Feel the energies of spirit and complacency, anger and creativity, desire and denial. That it had been loved and let go. I loved looking at the layers of paint and flooring. I loved to become immersed in it's history.



3:00p.m: I am cleaning out the baby room, taking down the curtains I made for my daughter Nova, washing down the walls with the butterflies and flowers we had painted for her. I remember the many nights I held her in this room, the countless times I snuck in just to look at her sleeping, to marvel at her soft little cheeks, and to thank the angels for watching over my children.

3:59p.m: I am sitting in the empty room crying in the closet. Something just hurts.

4:05p.m. Nova brings her blankie and crawls into the closet with me. She always comes. She always senses these things in me.



Everything within me has changed since I moved here. I made peace with God in this home. This is where I saw my most valuable insight into life, which is how everything is what it is whether you acknowledge it or not. Facing that has taken me deeper and deeper into that concept and into love and into life. I see more, love more accurately, everything is more expansive and it has only just begun. It's time for the next steps...whatever they may be, I don't need to know and if I need to know I will. Life is now. Life is this moment in time. Life is as beautiful as you allow for it to be. It's our choice alone to make.



I'll forever cherish the times I had here with family and friends. The meals, the games, dancing in the kitchen and drinking wine by the bonfire under an open prarie sky. The gift of sharing these moments with the moon and all of the constellations. The laughter of chasing the children down the hallway and tumbling together on the bed. The joy of letting them be their little uninhibited selves, letting that teach me so much about our freedom to embrace the simple wonders of life.

Every little moment, whether it was a joy or a challenge has deeply enriched my life. This house will always represent the time in my life where I allowed it to. That is the energy I will leave within its history.

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love and light,

Karla